| There's got to be something more... |
[20 Jul 2009|08:55pm] |
Waking up without you
It doesn't feel right
To sleep with only memories
It's harder every night
Sometimes I think I can feel you breathing on my neck
Tonight I'm reaching out to the stars
I think that he owes me a favor
It doesn't matter where you are
I'll hold you again
I wish I could hear your voice
And don't leave me alone in this bed
I wish I could touch you once more
And don't leave me alone in this bed
Not tonight, not tomorrow
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| When I sleep I dream. & when I dream, its always you.. |
[19 Jul 2009|11:06pm] |
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So its been an eternity since my last entry.
At this point, i feel i have to do this to keep my sanity.
It could be the insomnia, or simply just the thoughts of you that are keeping me awake.
Where do we go from here? Honestly I dont know how we made it this far.
Something that was once so fulfiling seems so uncertain.
Im in love.
There seems to be no discussion there. Oh yes, its going to hurt- that is clear.
Im just a wreck. There are so many things Im wanting, No NEEDING from you.
It seems impossible for you to do any of them.
And now, we are miles apart and going to make it work?
How?
We couldnt even make it work here.
Theres so many of these nights that I lay awake while youre steady fast dreaming.
And I think to myself, God if he only knew.
If you only knew how much you meant to me. One single person.
We've had talks, if you want to call them that. You know in the back of your mind how completely head over heels I am.
Yet its all the same. There is no effort from you and there is relentless effort from me.
We are an explosion waiting to happen. A huge, loud, violent explosion ready to erupt at any given second.
Is my Love healthy? No. No sir, it is not.
But how else do you love without giving everything you've got?
I know no other way. I cannot change my heart- and we all know, the heart wants what the heart wants.
And you, are what my heart is dying for.
A thousand miles away and my heart beats faster only at your name.
Love is sick.
If only you felt the same, even a mere closeness as to what I feel. Maybe then this whole disaster would end.
I love and I hurt. and its all the same. I know no other way.
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| Come On Baby. . .Let's spend our ♥Forever♥ together. . . |
[07 Aug 2007|11:58pm] |
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Every day we spend together
I know you are that One person
I'm meant to spend the rest of my Life with.
I can't tell you in enough words
how you make me feel.
I am so Lucky to have you in my life.
I love you Catlin.
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[08 Jun 2007|09:47am] |
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The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
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[28 May 2007|04:55pm] |
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Talk to me like you don't know what we ever fought about
Cause I don't remember anymore
Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived.
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[17 May 2007|11:34am] |
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| ♥ Catlin |
[11 May 2007|08:53am] |
I give you everything that I am. . .
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right
All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don't want to lose the love I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don't let me down
It's not fair how you are
I can't be complete, can you give me more?
& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me
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[10 May 2007|08:40am] |
I love this boy So So Much.
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| ♥ Catlin |
[13 Apr 2007|11:46am] |
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It wouldn't be so hard if he wouldn't smile at me
Because, God knows, I love that smile.
It wouldn't be so hard if he wouldn't look at me in that special way he does
But he always does...
It wouldn't be so hard if he didn't make me laugh at every little thing he does
But he is just so damn funny....
It wouldn't be that hard if he didn't hold me so tight and kiss me so soft
Oh how I love his kisses....
It wouldn't be so hard if I didn't love him so much...
But I do. . .
It wouldn't be so hard if I knew it was the right thing to do.
But I don't. . .
& it definetley wouldn't be so hard if I knew he wasn't going to be the one...
But I really want him to be. . .
But what do you do when your head is at war with your heart?
Sometimes he is so cold, and so distant though.
It feels like nothing matters to him...
I could cry & I sware he wouldn't flinch.
When he tells me how he feels & what's on his mind-
It means the world to me.
But when I need some one to tell me everything is alright
Silence.
How can you love some one but not care when they are upset?
Expecially when it's you that upsets them?
All my life I've wanted this perfect guy-
& it seems like there is no such thing.
Everytime I feel like I'm close-
Something goes wrong.
Maybe I'm just not worth a good guy.
Maybe I get what I deserve
& what I deserve is to have my heart broken
Over
&
Over again....
Yeah, Maybe that's what I deserve.
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| He Makes Me Wanna Be A Better Person. ♥ |
[24 Feb 2007|01:05pm] |
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When your long day is over
&& you can barely drag your feet
The wait of the world is on your shoulders
I know what you need
Bring it on Home to me. . .
Baby let me be your safe harbor.
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[18 Feb 2007|04:02pm] |
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Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it
♥
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today. . .
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[07 Feb 2007|11:05pm] |
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Bouquet of Clumsy Words, A simple Melody.
This worlds an Ugly place
But you're so beautiful to Me...
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[03 Dec 2006|12:50am] |
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Sometimes the sweetest things in life, have to be let go of. . .
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[26 Nov 2006|03:29pm] |
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He Makes me
Soooooo
Happy. . .
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[14 Nov 2006|01:05pm] |
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Head Automatica- Beating heart baby♥ |
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Baby is this love for real?
Let me in your arms to feel
The beating of your heart baby
The beating of your heart, baby
I, I don't know what to do with you
'cause you don't know what you do to me
In spite of you
Even out of view
Still I love all of you
I do, yeah
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| He is so Beautiful . . . |
[10 Nov 2006|10:46pm] |
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♥ I want you to Want Me. . .♥ |
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I want you to Want Me
I need you to Need Me
I'd love you to Love Me
I'm begging you to beg me. . .
I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me. . .
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| I love him soooo Much ♥ |
[08 Nov 2006|10:30pm] |
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every minute im not with you
I hope i'll see you soon
theres just something that happens
when you walk into the room
and you give me this feeling
its like no other feeling
but it knocks me off my feet
please don't ask me what I like about you
cause its every little thing you do
and thats just the way you make me feel
and I dont think
that there are any others out there like you
and I wont blink cause that would mean
I would miss a second beside you
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